Saturday, December 17, 2011

Happy Birthday Gary

Today Daniel's dad would have been 51.  His death was less than 5 months ago and I know that sometimes the hurt in that family is still very raw.  But today I think back one year.  I remember how sick he was, how tired, and I know that today his energy never diminishes and his body never hurts.  Hearts are still mending here over his passing, but he is healed eternally.

Duggars' Baby #20

I read today of the memorial service Jim Bob and Michelle held for their tiny stillborn daughter and then I made the huge mistake of reading some of the comments (although not all 113 pages of them).  I have to wonder where the respect for human life is and how it came to be that the entire world is so critical.  I suppose in writing this post that I may be a hypocrite as I am indeed critical of some of those commentors.  I have often thought that perhaps the backlash against large families and conservative christian families came from an underlying guilt.  Sometimes when we feel a calling to something that is out of the ordinary and we choose not to follow that calling, we end up bad-mouthing those who have followed it.  But today I am seeing the negativity as a direct result of culture and nothing more.  You cannot feel a conviction without a relationship with God (and He tells us that what we do will seem foolish to unbelievers).  I wonder how many people make their lifestyle choices based on what is publicly acceptable.  I feel like I should almost hide my family away as they suggest that all of us "conservative weirdos" are doing any way, so that we don't have to face the ugliness of their ideas.  Should I be afraid of doing what I feel called to do because of what society says?  I desire to stand   boldly for Christ, but I know in following through I will have many of the same things that are being said about the Duggar family said about my own.  I know that we won't be able to give all of our children all that the world says that they deserve, our children will have to learn responsibility at a young age (that's another thing: who says that the older children in large families work because they are forced to?  Isn't it possible that responsibility is an ingrained trait that society doesn't allow to develop in their self absorbed culture?).  I know that with each "successful" pregnancy my chance of eventually "running out of luck" (as the world would say) and having a difficult pregnancy or even losing a child goes up.  Am I willing to sacrifice my comfort, my health, my future for unborn children?  It is possible that those children could grow up and reject our family and reject the God who created them.  Is it worth it?  I say it is.  What do you say?

Monday, December 12, 2011


I have been hearing much about love lately from several different websites and blogs to my own husband.  I am certain of a few things concerning it...

1.  It is the greatest commandment
2.  It is often traded in for the law even though love overcame the law
3.  For many churches it is an all or nothing thing.  Either you preach only love or you don't mention it and stick to the nitty gritty of daily christian life.

To me, love had always seemed straight-forward...until recently.  I suppose it was straight-forward because I never really thought about what I believe on the topic.  Now, though, I have.  I think that since love-for God and each other-is the greatest commandment, then every thing, every idea, every tradition or conviction we have or do ought to be based in love.  If I dressed modestly and wore my hair long because I thought it would make me a better Christian then I Should Not Do It!  I do these things because I believe that they please my Heavenly Father and just like a little child I desire to please my Father because of the Love He has shown to me.  I also think that there needs to be a balance in the church although I'm not exactly sure how that should look.  I love to hear messages on daily Christian life because that is where I am and what I need on a weekly (daily, hourly, second-by-second) basis, but I think there should be an underlying message of love to each of those messages.  We do this because we Love Him.  We don't do that because it doesn't please the One we Love.  He deals with us in this manner because of His great Love for us.  We should raise our children in this way because we want to train them to Love God and we want them to learn that Love from what they receive from us.  Who ever though this could be such a confusing topic!?  I want to stay away from legalism and yet I believe that there are rules and commandment besides love, otherwise it would be the only commandment not the greatest, right?  Any thoughts would be appreciated...

Saturday, December 10, 2011


...Emma is sick.  She either has a virus or a reaction to her 4 month vaccines.  We are trying to get her fever down, but she does NOT like medicine (and the medicine is making her tummy hurt).

...We are going to look at another little car for Dan to drive to work.

...We are in desperate need of groceries, so I'll have to break down and go shopping.

...I am in awe of how quickly my children grow up.  Is there enough time to tell them I Love You enough?  Enough time to teach them all they need to know before they go out into the world?  I would love to hold them longer and yet they won't slow down!

...I am finally getting excited about Christmas.  I am infinitely excited that it is on a Sunday this year and we will be able to spend it in church!

...I am dreading calling our pastor to tell him that we won't be in church again tomorrow.  We haven't been there in a month because of vehicle trouble (we only had one running and Dan had to get to work) and now we are going to have to stay home and take care of sickies tomorrow.  I'm thankful that we have Wednesday night services that we can go to, as well.

...I feel oh-so-Blessed!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Still Here...

I haven't written lately and there are a few reasons why...

1.  We're busy
2.  My computer has been giving me fits
3.  Even though we are busy, there really isn't anything new happening

So, I have been spending my days enjoying my little ones and trying desperately to remember all the adorable things they say and do.  Of course we are all (or maybe just the kids) enjoying the anticipation leading up to Christmas!